My adventures in magick and alchemy have brought me to some pretty fun places recently within the sexual arena.
After some major inner work, clearing sexual power blocks that were related to my relationship with my parents, I got a renewed wave of hope and inspiration for the inner alchemy practices. Id like to share some images and visuals I have been using to understand and deepen my sexual energy practice.
The cock is a lightning straw.
It collects charge in the form of excitement and pleasure, then can discharge the energy through vacuum pressure with creative force.
A while back, I got a medieval myopractic adjustment using an old school table that hinges in the middle at my waist while I was strapped in by the ankles and rib cage. I lay face down and it opens, pulling the spine longitudinally. It's not widely practiced because of the potential liability. It is so uncommon that I can't even google a picture of the table. I have a video of one of my sessions, but the practitioner asked me not to share it publicly.
"Three nice breaths and on the third one we pull..."
"Three, trust, trust, trust..."
[20 minutes of AGHing later]
ahhhhh, oohhhhh, mmmmmmmmm, grrrrr
Basically the table tears open the low back in the most powerful release I've ever received. It can release all the lumbar vertebrae simultaneously and cause a massive movement of previously stuck energy.
I share this story because from that adjustment I experienced a major influx of chi right into my whole pelvis. It changed my whole posture. My legs felt lighter than air, I was invigorated with tremendous raw power, I felt the whole cosmic joke of all that is and was able to play with it in new way, and most relevant for this article:
it felt as if my cock was rooted all the way into my sacrum. There was a giant shaft of light that extended all the way through the pelvic floor, making my cock feel like it was 15 inches long, basically as an extension of the spine.
The peak of the effects wore off soon after as the energy dispersed and my body integrated. There were definitely some permanent shifts, but the 15 inch cock of light faded away...
As you might imagine, having that taste of what's possible fed me massive inspiration to discover how I can permanently maintain that cock of light and the sense of vitality, presence, lightness and purpose that comes with it. I've since been doing a lot of work to release trauma within the hips and psoas. I will share more on how I do this later.
Coming back to present, I've had a major breakthrough in seeing the most direct way to feed and strengthen my cock of light and it has to do with this model of the lightning straw.
Energetically, I see the light cock as the complete extension of the fully open and activated spinal chord, corresponding to the governor vessel in Chinese medicine. By working directly with the energy of the spine, opening, feeding, stimulating the balanced electrical activity, I can improve the sense of communication and connectedness within my whole body.
And sex is a great source of energy.
I will speak from the place of solo practice as that is what I have been diving deeply into recently.
I engage my imagination with a fantasy that not only lights up my cock, but also my heart. It's been entertaining to watch the evolution of my fantasies as all the old sexual programming falls away. They become less about raw, detached, conquering energy and more innocent and playful, honestly exploring what authentically turns me on. I can even get turned on by imagining talking to, expressing my feelings to a woman in my life, or just completely make up an alien planet full of horny warrior goddesses.
I used to have some resistance to fantasizing, as I didn't want to get lost in the mind and disconnect from the body. Then I realized that the mind IS the body and that energy is energy. If it feels good for me to dive deeply into fantasy, the images I am creating and the excitement I feel from that is building a bridge connecting my brain to my heart and cock. By diving fully into imagination through sexual fantasy, I am bringing my energy centers a sense of wholeness and connectedness.
I am using my fully present mind to start opening and activating the heart and cock. All three dantiens are synced up and unified for this singular purpose of sexual energy play.
As the excitement builds, I can feel the energy gather in my cock. I can sense and feel how close I am to the point of no return, the point where the energy is too much for my cock to handle and it seeks release. Funny how that point is flexible. If I approach it carefully and tip toe across, I can relax and those gyrations that normally begin orgasm will start but not finish. Playing at the edge expands the edge. Doing this from a relaxed, fully committed place is the key, any hesitation and you lose the benefits.
And if I happen to fall over the edge, I can do a power lock to more forcefully stop release. A power lock is when you squeeze all the major muscle groups except for the back and spine, especially the feet, legs, hands, jaw, perineum, and face. Looks funny but it works. There can be a little bit of downtime as all the energy of excitement that was in the cock has now gone into all the muscles. It can take a moment to re-energize, but it's much quicker and more sustainable than constant ejaculation for how often I practice.
I've been doing the above edge play for several years, but I noticed something very new within the past few days...
With high levels of excitement and specific forms of breathing, I could charge up my cock and instead of expelling it or just waiting for it to cool down, I could discharge my cock backwards, drawing it through the cock of light into the tailbone and up the spine. I call it a straw because I noticed my breathing pattern was like this:
Inhale with an open "o-shaped" mouth while charging up, like sipping from a straw, cock muscles activate without tension. Exhale, relax cock muscles then gently, subtly squeeze anal muscles and the energy shoots up the spine as far as it can.
This is what anyone who is into inner alchemy will consider very duh-worthy, everyones trying to blast energy up into the head. I personally found I could shoot energy up the spine and start to work on a couple blocks that were there. I've heard about it for so long, and felt whispers of things in the past. Now it feels so satisfying to finally have it embodied!
All the energy play is fun and feels super exciting to me. There is a very specific part of this that I feel directly builds the cock of light.
It has to do with the moment of charging up the cock.
I was laying down on my back as I was practicing and I found that if I jam my sacrum down, activating but not tensing my legs and feet, glutes completely relaxed, the charge capacity increases tremendously. As the excitement builds, I very consciously bring my awareness to the sacrum and feel my energy cock elongating and expanding. I can maintain much higher levels of excitement without release either out or up. The pure building of energy all held within my cock of light.
It feels like this expansion of energy capicitance within the cock expands and opens all the energetic/nerve channels in that area, building and creating a more embodied cock of light. It also feels like the effect is exponential, in that the more deeply I can go with presence and faith into higher and higher levels of excitement, the more an more exponentially my capacity to hold it becomes.
After a session of solidly charging up my light cock, I noticed some profound changes.
I felt more effortlessly grounded and present, with clarity on what my path and next point of excitement is.
I felt lighter, much more able to laugh and joke, have fun with friends and not get caught up in mental analysis.
I felt expanded psychic capacities and intuition. In one day there were five separate occasions where I picked up on exactly the right thing and was able to deliver with lightness and grace that facilitated empowerment and humor rather than judgement and smartassyness.
I felt more aliveness and energy! Invigoration and vitality!
Needless to say, I was blown away by this and finally understand why the sexual energy is foundational for any alchemy practice.
My next play practice is to build up the charge while simultaneously drawing it up the spine, using the energy to completely open my microcosmic orbit, middle and upper dantiens.
With the sexual practice, intense physical practice, Arizona sun and cold cold spring-fed creek water, I've already been feeling massive adjustments and openings all over my body, expanding into my entire life.
The realm of infinite possibilities and lifelong orgasmic bliss keeps opening infinitely!